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posted 01 Jun 2006, 23:06 in The Darkness That Comes BeforeBest character by alhana, Auditor

Esmi and Serwe~ As a woman, I always enjoy reading the stories of other women. This book has intruiged me as I have read about these women not only as they see themselves, but as the male characters see them and interact with them. All of this is even more fascinating when considered from the standpoint of the author of these thoughts also being a man. I think the endearing and even heartbreaking parts are to read about the power of these women have through their souls and bodies, even when they are in complete submission. In discussing this with a male friend, I pointed out that when one has no rights, one's body and sex becomes the last protection of one's position, even when that is taken forceably. Utilizing their bodies and their feminine mystic, they shape the lives of the men in their world and ensuring their own survival as well as pull unseen strings of power that many of the men never see. Only Kellhus is completely aware of the power of Serwe, even though he eventually conceeds to engage her, for other unknown reasons at this point in the story. The parts about the women in this book reminds me in many ways of [i:3pburwy1]Memoirs of a Geisha[/i:3pburwy1] that I read last December; that author was also male but was able to capture the essence of being a woman and the experience of female within a pre-dominately male ruled society. view post

posted 26 Jun 2006, 19:06 in Off-Topic DiscussionThe Hangover Whinge: Why oh Why? + A Misery Poll by alhana, Auditor

I will have to agree that tequila is the most vile. It must be something in the cactus they brew. I have heard however, that most of the tequile north of the border is also not very pure and maybe that accounts for all of us "los nortes" getting so violently ill. I personally get very sick on any gin drinks, not the barf kind of sick but the instant headache sick due to being allegeric to juniper. Other than that, yes.....mixing liqueors is very very wretched. So is not eating anything all day or being dehydrated before drinking spirits. Many of my females friends and I will avoid consuming calories before going out drinking thinking that we can fend off the dreaded "beer belly" only to find that our self-imposed-temporary-anorexia actually makes us sicker in the morning. view post

posted 26 Jun 2006, 19:06 in Off-Topic DiscussionGophers... by alhana, Auditor

Is your obssession with that furry little critter that burrows in our lawns and eats vegetables? Kind of like a mole? Or are you taking about the "gopher" delivery person? view post

posted 26 Jun 2006, 19:06 in Off-Topic Discussionmeasure is unceasing by alhana, Auditor

Thank you for your candor about your life experience. Wonderful tattoo! I have previously favored the Tolkien elvish script, but this tibetian font is inspiring also. Blessings of wellness and abundance to you in your cancer free future! view post

posted 27 Jun 2006, 05:06 in Off-Topic DiscussionGophers... by alhana, Auditor

Would your obession with this small furry animal be a fetish, as in the "furry fetish" variety type or just the fascination of the classic "Caddyshack" type? I jest. These small animals used to vex my father's farm when I was a young girl and the Irrigation Authorities would pay us for ...prove of their the form of their tails. However, when one turned up about a month ago in our front lawn, in the city limits, and my children and I had quite a fun time watching him. view post

posted 30 Jun 2006, 21:06 in Philosophy DiscussionTranshumanism and Genetic Engineering by alhana, Auditor

I vote no, for several reasons. First of all, how can we say that the natural evoluation of the human gene line is "harmful" or "bad"? If we overtreat any disease, whether is it a simple virual infection or a severe genetic deformity, we limit the human gene line (I mean the larger gene line related by generation upon generation) from sponteously mutating and becoming stronger to resist that disease. While I am not against seeking treatment for a disease or illness, I am against any outside-man-made-genetic-tampering in the name of "health". Secondly, as mentioned above, genetic amnormalies and diseases are nature's way of "selection". The strong survive, the weak do not. This happens already with "fertility" treament. If one cannot bear children naturally, rather than adopt the thousands of unwanted children of the world, one can have the local OBGYN take sperm and egg, either from that couple or someone else and make the female of the couple pregnant. When it is a case of donor egg and sperm, then it is actually better because it has already been screened for imperfections. When a couple insists that they must use their own genetic material, then they are tampering with nature. Maybe there is a REASON they SHOULD not conceive. In the simple handling of the tiny egg/sperm combo, there is also the possibility of damaging occurring. There are enough people on the earth. Many people also lose young children to disease or deformity. This happened in my own family. Rather than fighting Nature to "save" the child, accept what is and celebrate the life that is/was. Let nature take its course, whether through infertility or disease or whatever. If a deformed person is to survive, then he/she will. In ancient cultures, those who were born with a specific deformaty were sometimes worshipped and though the physical body was weak, the mind and spiritual body was strong. We should not look upon those are genetically different as being "bad" and seek to erradicate our gene structure for these impurities. Most of the time, these ammonilies are random and there is nothing that can be done to prevent them anyway. Finally, when we remove the "imperfections" from our cultural, we remove the opportunity to express compassion and we limit the value of the human being to the some total of it's "gifts" or "perfections." A great movie that dealt with this very issue was "Gattica." Though the plot line was predictable, it gave a look to the future if we as a society allow genetic research to continue unchecked. Additionally, when we "enhance" human performance we may limit other abilities from naturally enhancing. Mankind continues to grow taller every generation indicating that so far in human history, those who have strength and height have strengthened the overall gene pool of all. Why rush this process and "make" super humans? The larger question is "Who decides what is appropriate uses of this technology?" I recognize that genetic engineering is already happening on both the human gene strain and other strains of both plants and animals. However, we condemn ourselves to the eventual creation of a monster when we step into the shoes of Creator/Unverisal Source/Mother Nature. view post

posted 08 Jul 2006, 03:07 in The Darkness That Comes Beforesranc by alhana, Auditor

After reading DCB and about half of WP, I think I see these creatures as an orc mostly, but not the greenish kind depicted in some fantasy genres, but more of the wolvish type. I can see the similarities to werewolves, but I picture werewolves as much taller than the sranc when they stand on their back legs and more strong. These little buggers do seem to be shorter but still stocky lot, hairy and dog like, but very decidedly humanoid. view post

posted 08 Jul 2006, 03:07 in Philosophy DiscussionDrugs by alhana, Auditor

Hmmm I personally have not taken any illegal aka street drugs, but I have seen the disasterous effect on other people, probably because my job often interesects with those who have are in the most desperate times of their lives. I do consume both caffeine and alcohol on a regular basis. I find that without caffeine, it is almost impossible to even have the desire to get dressed some days. Alcohol is my bossum sister when I feel great and definately brings out the FLIRT in me, but she can also be a bitch when I down and mad at the world. I run back because she eventually makes me sleepy when I am really fried and need an "internal vacation." I have had some really really bad experiences on some prescription drugs....Dimerall makes me wretch and I refuse to take anything stronger than Tylenol or Advil for pain as I have a VERY high pain threshold so I have to take almost twice the dose of prescription pain medication to knock out my pain....and then I am drooling on myself and unable to function. I agree with the above observation that ALL drugs work with each individual's body chemistry in a unique way. Even alcohol hits each individual differently as each alcohol is distilled from different plants and herbs. One thing that hasn't not be mentioned yet is that the body also has CHEMICALS which react differently to foreign chemicals ingested. Self-medicating with caffeine, alcohol, pot, meth, opiates is very much under-represented in any understanding of mind altering chemicals. Perhaps people who feel more creative when high really are more focused because their "un-medicated" brain is missing key chemicals that other people have. The natural levels of seretonin (calming hormone) can be elvated with chemicals, as well as dophamine (feel good hormone). Even adrenaline can be absent leaving one feeling blah or "stuck open" leaving one feeling tense. From simple herbs like chamomile and kava root to poppies, tobacco, and mushrooms or even man-made cocktails like meth and heroine or prescription drugs, we humans find ways to balance this "holy trinity" of emotional hormones to achieve relaxation, creativity, or even pleasure. I personally have loosened my own beliefs about the use of substances as I have grown to understand that not every Starbucks addict is sane and not every pot-head is insane :D . I look forward to experiencing better living through chemistry in my future. view post

posted 08 Jul 2006, 04:07 in Philosophy DiscussionModern Soldiers by alhana, Auditor

Those who have the most right to brag, rarely do so. My father was DRAFTED to Viet Nam. He was a college graduate, but from a very poor farmer family. He didn't have the connections to get him out of the country or to get him a desireable assignment. He is flat footed (makes his feet weak for marching) and legally blind in his right eye (he can't fire at a target for shit). If he had been alive during WWII, they would not have even let him volunteer to fight. However, he is a humble man. He never bragged about his service, he was not proud of being involved in that conflict. Yet, it made him stronger. He always hated guns and he doesn't even hunt. They tried to make him an officer, but he washed out of OT, which actually saved his life, as 2nd Lt. had the highest causality rate of all officers. Another stroke of good fortune that saved him from the Insanity of the Jungle was that they needed a clerk and because he had been to college, they traded his gun for typewriter when he landed in Nam. He got to live out the horrors of this war by typing field records, death certificates, and family notifications. This gentle man came home from Viet Nam and landed in California in 1969. He did not kill a single person in Viet Nam. He didn't even want to be there. Yet after getting off the plane in San Diego, he had to ride the bus to Northern California to meet his fiance in San Fransico. A woman sat next to him on the whole trip and cursed at him, calling him a baby killer and a rapist. He said nothing as he rode, knowing that this woman was venting her own anger at something she did not understand. He courted my mother by letters that crossed the Pacific Ocean. He only speaks of these things when I ask and even then he is still guarded. He cried about this once in public, when my brother took him to see the Traveling Wall Monument. He has never taken any of the discounts or benefits he could get as a veteren. I think he would rather forget about the inhumanity of this war than require others to acknowledge his sacrifice by giving him discounts and acolades. I think that our servicemen and women deserve our respect and I think we are much better about giving them appreciation for what they do. But those who have to ask and make a point of their "service" make light of those who truly deserve and do not ask. view post

posted 08 Jul 2006, 19:07 in The Darkness That Comes Beforesranc by alhana, Auditor

Maybe things that are feral always seem hairy to me. Not shaggy hairy, but definately not clean shaved. :lol: view post

posted 13 Jul 2006, 07:07 in Philosophy Discussionignorance or enlightenment ? by alhana, Auditor

I would rather not despair for my enlightenment. :lol: But I can not imagine ever being so complacent that I no longer understood or concerned myself with the afflicitions of others. To be completely ignorant of humanity's fralities would almost be sub-human......or non-human....primative on the level of the animal mind. Or perhaps it would be like having the mind of a machine--completely detached from the reality of suffering and seeing only the data that marks the existence of the human race. view post

posted 17 Jul 2006, 22:07 in Off-Topic DiscussionGaming? by alhana, Auditor

I played D&D (now on 3 Add.) which lead to Everquest. I tried out Baulder's Gate (D&D for PC), but I prefer the online nature of MMORPGs. I beta tested World of Warcraft and didn't look back..started playing WoW when it went live in Nov. 04 and left EQ. I find I can only dedicate time and money for one online subscription game. Now that my kids are getting old enough, we have discovered some great table top games that are easier than D&D but have great replay value. Our favorites are Heroscape (can find it at most retail stores like Wal-Mart, K-Mart, etc. or order online) and Pirates! (table top, build your own ship, game in a package from WizKids). I play in spurts, both table top and RPG online. I have found that WoW has not been the 'grind' that was EQ. At first, Blizzard seem to have the fan concept that responded more to the consumers and their suggestions. Lately, however, I am sad to say that Blizzard Customer Support has been lacking and they have gone the way of most entertainment gaming companies with their Developers sacrificing content for what makes money, not what their fans are asking for. Though Blizzard is on the leading edge of fan-based input, they have given up a little of what they had in the "golden days" when the game first came out. No game is perfect I realize and this is only my opinion, the amaeuter that I am. I am looking forward to trying out Warhammer next year, depending on what my gaming friends do. I think I am about due for a computer upgrade as well...since Warhammer seems to be demanding much more for system requirements than what I am currently running. Of computer is about 5 years old too..... :lol: The story concepts look good, the replay value seems high and the content/reward for time invested seems good also. view post

posted 19 Jul 2006, 06:07 in The Warrior ProphetEsmet's betrayl, Bakker's massogeny, and a criticism by alhana, Auditor

If I was living in the Three Seas, I just might be a whore too. It is a hard place to live. This is not about what the woman could or couldn't was about what she MUST do. Yes she is weak and seemingly betrays the latest lover to take up the next strongest guy that comes along for security, but so does every woman. You only need to look around at the majority of the women who inhabit the news or even your neighborhoods to see that every woman is looking for security as every man is looking for adoration. This scene is played out by every woman who stays with an abusive or degenerate man just because he is security. Even when the woman is supporting said slacker who lays passed out on the couch from whatever vile potion he consumed, she will still stay because to leave him would to be to give up on her dream of finding Prince Charming behind the Toad she first kissed and to step out into the terrifying concrete jungle alone. If Bakker is writing about his critique of every woman, then he is also writing about every man...the eternal lust for power and war and to dominate the women in his path and to overcome the perceived weakness of himself. Again, look only as far as today's headlines to see every manner of man conquering some foe, whether on a field of war or of sport. From the Emperor to Akka, you can see the self doubt that every man longs to have resolved for him, either by his accomplishments or his woman or lover...his prize. Maybe also he even touches on a homosexual fantasy that many men fear, that in even the sexual preference there might be a weakness. You have missed the scope of Bakker's writing.....yes, he writes of himself but he also places all of humanity into his reflections of himself. view post

posted 21 Jul 2006, 16:07 in Off-Topic DiscussionGaming? by alhana, Auditor

Oh yeah..I forgot my funny story. Back in the day, I was playing a half-elf thief and there was an orge magi in the group. Part of the fun of playing as adults is drinking and doing shots. As the night progress both the magi and I were quite buzzed and flirting with each other, all in role-play of course! We were fighting some huge She-Lobe spider thing that could turn you to stone. My thief used her hide skill, snuck in behind her and climbed the wall to imploy some type of a net-trap. She was engaging the party and didn't see me until I dropped down from the wall and failed my silent fall skill. She whirled around and turned me into stone. The magi started laughing and the guys started joking about having a stone sex slave. He finally used some oil of stone to flesh on me, restoring all but the breasts to flesh! For the rest of her days, my thief had stone breasts :lol: view post

posted 24 Jul 2006, 18:07 in The Warrior ProphetEsmet's betrayl, Bakker's massogeny, and a criticism by alhana, Auditor

Huzzah to ressurecting old posts! I am new to the series, so the posts are all new to me! As a female reader, I find nothing offensive about Bakker's references to the female characters or to his references to phallic symbols. Maybe I am just to navie to get worked up over a few penises. I second the notion that one can focus on selected passages of any book and miss the whole story. In fact, I think we all know of "holy scriptures" of any world sect that has been "mis-quoted" and "taken out of context" to prompt a social view or prove a point of sin. I suppose if one took this analogy far enough, one could find examples of "he-man woman hating" and "homoerotic references" in primer books for children. "Oh look, Dick is holding a stick. This author must be making a homosexual reference" "Oh Jane fell down and hurt her knee. This author must be saying that girls are weak and cry all the time." It takes a small brain to get stuck on the words on the page. Elite readers appreciated skillful writing and can see the whole story for all of the glorious details. view post

posted 26 Jul 2006, 17:07 in Author Q & AAkka's Magical! by alhana, Auditor

I would agree that there are better examples of Seswatha "possessing" Akka, primarily when he is imprisoned. But could be a good example of another instance where perhaps the being inside of Akka's dreams comes out in his waking life. view post

posted 27 Jul 2006, 05:07 in Philosophy DiscussionAMERICAN POLITICS... by alhana, Auditor

Huzzah for ressurecting old posts!! I am an independant voter. I have never registered with any political party because 1) in BFE it is completely pointless to be anything other than a Donkey or an Elephant 2) the party system is broken and was never intended to "run" the government of the US. I vote any and all canidates I chose regardless of political party. If I am anything, I am conservative liberal or a liberal conservative; I am a moderate who wants her Constitution to be free from political bull shit and party mucky muck. I am a deeply spiritual person but I find that the "religious issues" focus on all the wrong issues ie, right-to-life folks usually support the death penality and but not the quality of life of the baby they save. People who want to "save families from abuse" do not support a living wage or giving people real life skills rather than handouts. These are difficult times to vote the decisions that effect not only our futures and the futures of our children, but also the future of the global village where we all reside. view post

posted 31 Jul 2006, 06:07 in Philosophy DiscussionNLP by alhana, Auditor

Very intruging bit of information. On the surface, however, it really appears to be nothing more that good psychology. The disciplined mind that is able to affect cognitive change in those that one comes in contact with sounds a lot like Cognitive-Behavior Modification 101 to me. Intuition and the ability to use verbal communication to effect behavioral change is really not that new. Some people seem to have a natural gift for it and they often are people who have had little or no formal training. With formal training, a specialist can make thousands of dollars in teaching others to change not only their own "stinking thinking" but manipulate those around them in order to avoid chemical dependency relapse, overcome phobias, or even lose weight. There are a number of in-depth trauma therapies, such as Eye Movement and Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) that utilize both verbal cues as well as external stimulus of the brain (sound, eye movement, and touch) to "reprocess" the bad memories that get stuck in the brain causing nasty flash backs, blackouts, and even violent aggressive reactions to confrontation. EMDR has been well funded research for "curing" soldiers of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and the long-term studies have shown amazing results in reducing or eliminating both physilogical and psychological effects of trauma. To be able to help a person recover from such a daily devastation of nightmares and uncontrolable panic attacks without the aid of medication is almost a miracle in itself. It seems that NLP is a modality that can be use by anyone anywhere, preferably with a "healthy" brain to affect daily manipulations of one's social environment. Of course the scope of claims of NLP being able affect the experience "parapsychological phenomena such as ESP" or affecting "body and lifestyle change such as breast enlargement and finding sexual partners" might be on the outer reaches of mind/body connection. Given the fact that the brain is the most studied organ that we know the least about in terms of HOW it does what it does, anything is possible. view post

posted 31 Jul 2006, 07:07 in The Warrior ProphetKellhus, Achamiam, and Emotion by alhana, Auditor

I know I am posting about an old topic here, but, I am not sure that "sociopath" is the way I would describe Kellhus. By your defination, even Martin Luther, William Wallace, and Martin Luther King would all be "sociopaths". All of them stood against the rules and "morals" of their socities at the time they rallied supporters about them to make significant social changes. I think, after finishing WP and waiting for TTT (it better come tomorrow!), I think that Kellhus stands outside of the society in which he finds himself. He was not born into the world of Conphas and Proyas and Akka and Esmi. He is not WORLD born, he is from a society that secluded itself from the rest of Earwe. Though I have a theory about what TTT will reveal, I believe that he is human but, as it was stated before, he has been conditioned and genetically engineered through selective breeding and cultivated from the womb to stand outside of all else and see The Darkness and The Logos and to walk where it leads him. Those who follow their destiny and their visions rarely appear sane; it is only after their life's work is measured against their vision that the rest of the world can see that they followed a path of brillance. view post

posted 01 Aug 2006, 16:08 in Literature DiscussionFavorite books/series by alhana, Auditor

I thoroughly enjoyed The Shannara series. I haven't read them in a while, but I found they were not as epic as Tolkien. They were easy to read, but I think my reading has matured a little. Call me an elite reader snob!!! view post

My response to PoN series posted 03 Aug 2006, 17:08 in General AnnouncementsYour Response To the PoN by alhana, Auditor

R. Scott Bakker has written a series that captivated my attention, transported my imagination, challenged my perception, and then delivered my mind back to reality. He is gifted at building a world with religions, politics, struggles, and philosophies that seem familiar to human history but whisper the constrast of exotic differences. His characters are often both breath-takingly tragic and heroically real. This should become a new standard in the list of epic fantasy. view post

posted 04 Aug 2006, 16:08 in Literature DiscussionFavorite books/series by alhana, Auditor

I have been watching the Anita Blake novels in a sci-fi book club mailing I get. They sound decadently evil. So many little time :cry: view post

posted 04 Aug 2006, 16:08 in Literature DiscussionWhat would you say are the must-reads of literature? by alhana, Auditor

I believe that C.S. Lewis's Narnia books were written for his step-son Douglas, who ended up backing the Disney release of the movie last Christmas. They were indeed aimed at children, but they endure as loved by adults as well. U.S. children might have some difficulty as a good portion of the books have references to words and phrases used in the UK. Tolkien, on the other hand, is very complex story. [i:ob24f235]The Hobbit[/i:ob24f235] is the easiest of all to read, but all of them still have detailed discourses and poems and other elements that might be a little challenging for some students younger than 14. When one begins to study the other books of history and lanuages that Tolkien used in his work, there is a much broader base of information to read and disseminate. Again, I believe that Tolkien appeals to readers of all ages and can be enjoyed over and over as one learns about the world that he created. It strikes me that few books written today are both appealing to children and adults. The closest thing I have seen would be Rawling's [i:ob24f235]Harry Potter[/i:ob24f235] series. While a lot of folks have ranckled that her writing is too simple and her series is not to be taken seriously by adults, I disagree. I have read all 6 of her books along with my young reader and after Book 4 [i:ob24f235]Goblet of Fire[/i:ob24f235], the series became decidedly more mature. Like Lewis, her books are aimed at young readers, but have elementals of grief and lose and falling in love and overcoming great challenges that appeals to adults. The best thing that has come out of this series is that kids are engrossed in a really good book and are reading again. The last two summers that she released books, the hospitals in certain neighborhoods in England reported almost a 100% drop in "kid" related ER visits the weekends before and after her book was released! The kids were all inside reading!!!!! Not exactly "hard evidence" but it does seem that a good book can still transport even the minds of a generation that has grown up on Ninetendo and Xbox. view post

posted 08 Aug 2006, 05:08 in Literature DiscussionWhy read fantasy? by alhana, Auditor

I have always loved books and magical things captivated my interest at a young age--when I wasn't playing cowboys and indians! I read The Chronicles of Narnia in 5th and 6th grade...a long long time ago!!! Then it was onto Tolkien in High School and on and on and on. I continue to read fantasy today, because as one of my favorite bumper stickers says, "Reality is for those who have no imagination!" view post

posted 09 Aug 2006, 05:08 in Philosophy DiscussionWar in Lebanon by alhana, Auditor

I am not an expert on Middle-Eastern Politics, but I think that the US backed Israel just as much, if not more than England did in creating a Jewish State. Additionally, England's colonization had almost nothing to do with the current condition of Middle-Eastern politics. This place has a blood freud that pre-dates the times of Jesus Christ, before England was even a country.....or the US....or really of the "so called" super powers of the UN today. The land that Palastine and Israel and Iraq and Iran all sit on have been in conflicts and struggles since almost the beginning of written history. There are also factions of the "religious right" in the US who believe that it is the "god-given" responsibility of the US to back Israel as they believe that it is written in Scripture that the US will be involved in Armagedon. In essence, many present day Christians (meaning both Catholics and Protestants) believe that at the end of the world a country from the West (most today think this will be the US) will be involved in a God Ordained Battle of the Ages. It is laughable at best that the UN or anyone thinks that any kind of "Western intervention" will settle this age old dispute, though many believe the West SHOULD be involved for religious and scriptural reasons. I personally believe that it is not for me to worry about. Whether or not the US is involved, there will be war in the Middle East until the people who live there are tired of fighting. view post

posted 21 Aug 2006, 15:08 in The Thousandfold ThoughtWill Esmi Cause Mandati/Warrior-Prophet Drama? by alhana, Auditor

After reading half of TTT, I am beginning to take back all the nice things I said about Esmi previously. I wanted to believe that she was not the object of Bakker's female bashing and I still want to believe that she made the best choice when she chooses to stay with Kellhus, but I am also disappointed in her. Though she would have died if she had stayed outside of Kellhus' camp, she could have joined Kellhus and Serwe but NOT had sex with them. I know she is a whore and all, but where is the redemption? Even though she has risen in status as Kellhus' advisor/wife/mother of his future children, she continues to act the whore....never faithful. As a professional of human behavior, I tried to excuse her actions because of her own incestual upbringing and her wicked father and the on-going trauma of her life. But even then, I couldn't. I could say that she was simply a victim of a very powerful man (Kellhus seems to make everyone like him until they are enlightened) and many many people have been enticed by Kellhus' ammorality. But even as she begins to realize that Akka is not weak, that Kellhus' is just using her as he does with everyone, and that adornation and devotion are not the as as unconditional romantic love, she still stays with Kellhus instead of returning to Akka. I suppose that just like others, by the time she perceives Kellhus' true intentions, she can't leave. I still believe that Bakker is not bashing on women but rather Esmi is just one part of the story. She is a whore and she remains unfaithful because that is the role in the story she must play. Without weakness, we are not truly human and without our sins, there is no grace. I am hoping that in 20 years she redeems herself. view post

posted 21 Aug 2006, 19:08 in The Thousandfold ThoughtWill Esmi Cause Mandati/Warrior-Prophet Drama? by alhana, Auditor

I do not think her redemption will mean she can be Akka's wife. I know he is out of her reach, but there might be other actions she can take to make things right in the end. view post

posted 22 Aug 2006, 22:08 in The Thousandfold ThoughtWill Esmi Cause Mandati/Warrior-Prophet Drama? by alhana, Auditor

Maybe redemption was a poor choice of word.....perhaps resolution or "making peace with her mistake" would be a better way to describe what I meant. She clearly betrayed Akka's love, even when she thought he was dead, she wasted no time in finding a new lover. I want there to be closure between Esmi and Akka and there never can be. At the end of one's long life though many people "make peace" with their mistakes. Sometimes people die before they can work out what they would have or should have done differently. Though her betrayal certainly gave Akka nothing to lose and in the end prompted him to stand up to Kellhus, I still wanted Esmi to be a "better person" and not give up on the only man who truly loved her in all of her sorided life. I realize that this is not the kind of story that has a happy ending. :x *****Sorry!! I editted this when I realized I didn't give an answer for the "how" part of the last post.**** I don't know how one redeems oneself for their past mistakes. If I did, I would be a much richer therapist for sure. I believe that perhaps as she gives birth to her child and raises that child, she might be able to teach that child what true love is. I know this won't happen as that child, especially if it is a son, will be under the all encompassing influence of Kellhus. I hope that she can at least apologize to Akka somehow and maybe she already did that when she told him "You are not weak." Leaving Kellhus and going back to Akka is definately out of the question for many reasons. Perhaps she could even just admit that she loves both men....but it seems that both our culture and the world of the Three Seas does not accept the fact that a person can love two people at one time. I think that all three people involved...Kellhus, Esmi and Akka...all know that Esmi loves both men and that she cannot stop herself from doing so. I am not sure that she should do so either; however the more she denies her love for Akka the more it festers both in her mind and in her relationship with Kellhus. Now I am talking in circles for sure as loving two men really doesn't "redeem" a woman's infidelity. In the end, we can't take back our poor choices and maybe not regretting them is the best way to make peace with our past. But I suppose that only Bakker knows what path Esmi's life choices will take her next. view post

posted 24 Aug 2006, 15:08 in The Thousandfold ThoughtWill Esmi Cause Mandati/Warrior-Prophet Drama? by alhana, Auditor

Isn't it funny how we can dialouge about people who aren't even real? :lol: Good points on both accounts, I suppose that when the three main female characters are stacked up against each other, Esmi does come across in a more positive light. Thanks, Mahajanga and Harrol the great insight! view post

posted 24 Aug 2006, 16:08 in The Thousandfold ThoughtWill Esmi Cause Mandati/Warrior-Prophet Drama? by alhana, Auditor

Maybe that is why I want Esmi to be a better person; I see myself in her. I want to see her make better choices--to be strong enough to overcome her fears of aging and losing her beauty, to not sell herself short just because she start out her life common, to love her True Love (Akka) and not betray him, and to give her yet-born-child a good home despite the chaos around her--because I want to believe that I could make the best choices if I were in her place. She may not be a common slut, but in a sense she is still "selling herself" by staying with Kellhus. This time, her "custom" has purchased not only her body, but her soul and the life of her child for the price of prestige, a false sense of identity, and security. Even though Kellhus freed her from being a prostitute, he is using her none the less. She has power, but only as much power as Kellhus gives to her so she is still his "servant". Maybe even more, I want to believe that women can be faithful, that we can exercise self-control when it comes to sex. Sex is such a powerful tool and such an extravagant gift and when I see a female character like Esmi squander her "wealth", I fear the power and gift of all women is somehow less than it was before. The value of a good woman is cheapened because we (as a society) say, "Well no one is perfect, we all fail, we all lust, that is just the way it is." When women rely on men to tell them they are "good enough" or to define who they are by their sexual skill, then these women are not truly free. In the end, I want Esmi to be something more than a whore because I want all women to be something more than the object of a man's affection. I want Esmi to see herself for who she really is, not who the men in her life tell her she is. I want her to be free to love who she really wants to, not just run to the next strong man who will tell her she is worth something. I thought she had that until I began to realize that Kellhus was just the next guy to use her and that Akka loved her for the person she really was. view post

posted 24 Aug 2006, 21:08 in The Thousandfold ThoughtWill Esmi Cause Mandati/Warrior-Prophet Drama? by alhana, Auditor

While I agree that Akka was limited because he was "world born", maybe the other issue one all long-term couples face...they were both set in their ways. Not until they were separated that they realized things about each other that they had never questioned and it is not only their culture that limits them but their own routines. Akka never offered and Esmi never asked, but when Akka realized that Esmi could read, he reflected on that the fact that it never occurred to him that she wanted to learn. Likewise the issue of having a child, Esmi never offered and Akka never asked her to give up her womb to have his child, both of them assuming that their lives were too uncertain. How many modern couples after having loved each other and lost the other to ANOTHER, are awakened by how much they took the other person for granted? She says, "You never had that kind of passion for me" and He says, "You never honored me like you honor HIM". I am not ready to blame Akka's "world-born" origin for why he didn't appreciate Esmi or treat her differently. I think that they needed someone like Kellhus to challenge their very existence in order for them to see each other differently. Many couples do look at each other differently after an affair, after a forced separation, after a loss of a child/parent, or after a serious illness or near-death experience. You raise a good point about Esmi reaching a higher level of freedom as Kellhus' wife. I still fear that she will be limited in her status and just become another pawn in his plans. view post

posted 01 Sep 2006, 14:09 in The Thousandfold ThoughtHeresiarch of the Cishaurim by alhana, Auditor

I saw a parallel between "crucifix" of Christianity upon which Jesus Christ was put to death by the Romans and "circumfix" that Kellhus was placed upon to die. I believe that Bakker intentionally wrote the details of the two religious factions vauge to illustrate that at the root of religions, like Christianity and Islam, there is really not much difference. A couple hundred years ago different European factions of Christianity were burning each other at the stake, even though they all believed in the teachings of Jesus Christ. As in the world of Earwe, any time there is a "holy war" or "jihad" it is less about the details of doctrine and more about the placement of power. view post

posted 15 Sep 2006, 02:09 in Philosophy DiscussionSeptember 11th by alhana, Auditor

On 9/11/01, I was living a very undirected and rather routine life. I got up, took care of the details of the day, and went back to bed. I was in a transition period and felt I was in an everlasting fog. I was struggling with a depressive and blaise existence. That morning, as I woke up, the first plane had just crashed and then I was suddenly wake.....something that did not usually happen till many hours into my day. Then I watched the next plane crash and the next and the next..and then the dizzy media and information frenzy that followed. Living in the NW US, we didn't know if there would be another plane that would hit a target in the NW and take out a power plant or a major dam that could flood an entire region. In an instant, my miserable and rather boring life exploded and I knew that the things that I was alllowing to make me miserable were nothing compared to the misery I was witnessing. I turned a corner in my life that day. Over the next few weeks, I patched up relationships that needed reconcilation not wanting to be like the woman I saw on the TV that had never been able to say she was sorry and take back the hurtful words she said to her husband the night before. I had a baby, a 9/11 baby, and that child continues to be the source of merriment and inspiration as I realize that without the hope of the next generation we have nothing. And finally, I broke out of an oppessive religious sect that had me mired down in guilt and condemnation to seek true spiritual awakening. But this year, I mentioned to someone that it had been 5 years and she said, "I am not focusing on that because I do not want to focus my mental enegry on fear or terror, but peace." Though this event touched my life and pushed me to make positive changes in my life, I realized that she was right. The more we focus on the wrongs that others have done to us, there can be no forgiveness. Mother Theresa once said that she would not support an anti-war rally but she would always attend a pro-peace convention. So, I embrace peace and not on terror. Though I am not perfect, I will stop focusing on the negative things in my life and on the positive ways I can make good the focus of my energy. I will continue to strive to live the days of my life to make an account for the life in my days. view post

posted 19 Sep 2006, 15:09 in The Thousandfold ThoughtHeresiarch of the Cishaurim by alhana, Auditor

Last night as I was looking over some of the passages at the end of TTT when Kellhus and his father are talking, it occurred to me there is another "biblical" parralel here. In the book of Genesis, two mighty nations begin a conflict that stretches to the present age and was conceived in the birth of two sets of brothers. The first was Ishamel, the father of the nations who are Arabic today and Issac, who became the heir to Abraham's nation of "the chosen people." The second set of brothers were Esau, who was first born twin to Issac but was denied his birthright for Jacob who later became known as Israel. Legend has it that Esau may have joined forces with the tribes of Ishamel when he was denied his birthright. Ishamel represents a people who were cast out. Ishamel's mother was a maidservant given to Abraham by his wife Sarah because she could not conceive. Later when Sarah became pregnant and bore her own son, she got jealous of the son by another woman and Abraham sent Ishamel and his mother into the desert. Ishamel had the right to claim Abraham's inheritance, but he was denied it and left to die. He was saved by an angel who gave them water and then they were rescued by a tribe of nomads. Some speculate that this event sparked the intial anomosity between the two tribes of Abraham, the Muslims and the Jews. I wonder if when Esmi's baby is born, if the reminder of Serwe will poison her mind and if she will fear for the "position" of her own son and ask that Moehengus be removed from the family. I think some sort of power struggle between these two sons will happen at some point and could have some similarities to these biblical siblings. view post

posted 03 Oct 2006, 05:10 in Philosophy DiscussionThe new craze by alhana, Auditor

These shootings seem to go in cycles. I remember that 1999 was a particulary bad year for school shootings too. One goes, then another, then another. One of the initial reports that I read late this afternoon seemed to indicate this one at the Amish school today could have been a copycat shooting. With each very vivid, very detailed news report about another shooting, we plant the seed of the idea in the next killer's mind. These people involved in these shootings probably gave out warning signs of their internal confusion, but no one listened. But our over-active US News Media gave them one last platform from which to rage at the world. They probably felt insignificant in life, but in the end they achieved notority. When one focuses on negative, negative is returned in kind. I rarely watch the news anymore for this reason. I do not want to dwell on the evil that will enivitably happen; I educate myself, but I leave out all the "bad news" that focuses only on what is going wrong and not what is going right. I "scan" headlines in various written forms throughout my day. I try not to focus on this kind of senseless and inconvicible violence but instead on what made the person behind it finally give up. What would have happened today if someone had given this man a word of encouragement or a kind deed? What if someone had thought to reach out to a hurting man and give him kindness or just even listened to him? Maybe everything would have still turned out the way it did, but maybe not. I will take the chance that my kindness and receptive attitudes toward others might make a difference so that if this kind of person came across my path maybe they would chose life instead of death. view post

posted 04 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Off-Topic DiscussionOther forums frequented by alhana, Auditor

I spend some time on two online game related boards...cuz I am a geek...too White and Nerdy. view post

posted 04 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Philosophy DiscussionThe new craze by alhana, Auditor

As with any problem of human behavior, this school shooting craze does not have one cause. It is about society, violence, the media lust for reporting violence, the decay of families, bulllying at school, too much free time for pre-adults, too little time to be kids, sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse, the lack of a belief in Anything that gives hope, not letting boys be boys, mental health issues, and the general loss of innocence. As yet, there has not been a single female shooter. (I am sure next week there will be one just to prove me wrong.) The only common factor about all of the shootings, starting with the notorious McDonald's shooting in the 80s in Southern California to this week's Amish school massacare is that they were all male. Something is happening to the young men of the last two generations that is causing them to lose focus on reality and decide that violence is the only way. Women turn their rage inward and men turn their rage outward. We don't teach our sons how to express their rage in a healthy way...we just tell them not to fight. Until Society as a whole figures out a way to rescue our young men from the demons that plague them, they will continue to stage these very brutal and very public way to get the point across that they are angry at the world. With that, I am going to go make a cup of cocoa for my son and read him a story 8) view post

posted 06 Oct 2006, 15:10 in Off-Topic DiscussionHAIR by alhana, Auditor

I think my hair says...Hey I'm a woman and I am a mom. I do it up when I go to a local social event like once a year, but I just don't care to spend time on it. I have better things to do. Like sit here and post about my hair :wink: It has red highlights (thanks to a little help from Clariol) and it says, sweet and saucy. It is naturally curly so it just does its own thing, especially if it rains, so that is sort of the.....Wild hair thing, free spirit and what not. I don't think I planned for my hair to say that..but it does. Which suits my personality I suppose. I don't take the time to make my hair express anything else but maybe that is an expresssion in itself...that I am a natural woman...... view post

posted 06 Oct 2006, 19:10 in Off-Topic DiscussionHAIR by alhana, Auditor

Same fact the less I brush it the better it is. I usually comb it when I first get out of the shower, but just let it hang after that. If I have to "comb" it, like if I go outside and the wind blows it around, I wet it down and put some mousse on my fingers to restyle it. I knew what Gierra was talking about. I wore pony tails a little in my hair before I cut it over a year ago, parted down the middle and gathered behind my ears. If I have to pull it back now, my favorite is to wear a baseball cap and pull the hair out the back through the hole. Or gather it all up in big clip in the back. But if I do put it in pony tales or pull it back and clip it ..and go outside in humidity..I have little curls that spring up all over the top of my head like a red-topped Q-tip!!!! There is an episode of (gasp I know it is low-brow) Friends, when they go to the Bahamas and Monica's hair went crazy...getting all frizzy and huge like a white girl afro. is true...that happened to me when I went to Georgia one September. I thought it was an exaggration on TV...but it wasn't! view post

posted 06 Oct 2006, 19:10 in Philosophy Discussionsuccess by alhana, Auditor

I agree with Gierra, Mahajanga. For many people in the modern world, we do not see offspring as a measure of a person's success, or even marriage for that matter. I do think however, that many people later in life achieve material and personal success and even spiritual enlightenment, only to find their are still empty because they have no one to "pass on" their wealth of knowledge and experience and material possessions. The desire to have children is a strong evolutionary drive that ensures the survive of our species. With the ability to "preserve" one's exist in writing and other forms of self-express, there are some people who never feel that need as they see themselves being "reproduced" through their own work and their mentoring of others. I would say that happiness come from my inner sense of harmony with the intentions of the Universe, as Maha stated, that are symbolized by mental and spiritual clarity, despite what "world-born" circumstances I face. My contentment is expressed in having a family, a home, and a job that I love where I can express the gifts I have been given and finally true friends that have lasted me my adult life. It is dangerous to say though that the things that bring me contentment also give me happiness because my house could burn down, my job could be lost, my children can be demanding and challenging, and my friends may eventually die or even move away so that I lose touch with them. The "things" that give us happiness can be lost; however, our sense of self can never be destroyed because it is ours alone. If I let the impact of events and people in my life affect how "happy" or "unhappy" I am, then I too might lose my sense of self and fall into a pit of altered reality, i.e., depression, frustration, rage, and even suicidal or homicidal thoughts. If instead I focus to always live in harmony with others, push aside the negative energy in the world and reach toward what is creative, kind, loving, beautiful, abundant, receptive, and allowing for expanding growth, then I am happy. (That by the way is not my own principal, but one I learned from someone else's spiritual work. It rings true in my own experience.) I do believe in God, but that Image looks much less like the version from my Protestant upbringing and more and more like the Transendant Being of World Religions. It does give me peace to be able to let go of certain issues that I don't understand and rely on faith to ease my emotional burden. It is not that I do not acknowledge that the negative exists, but that when bad things happen, I try not to fight the negative, but also I resist the urge to embrace it. When one dwells on suffering and pain, it is hard to let go and move into a place of health and healing, especially if the pain and suffering were caused by another person, against our will. Now least you all think my life is ideal, it is not. I have had lose and death and even abuse in my life. I still need to practice this way of thinking on a daily basis in order to focus always on the happiness and contentment I seek for my life. view post

posted 10 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Off-Topic Discussionwhat do you do by alhana, Auditor

I am currently engaged in a long-term, domestic-based experiment to determine if three male hairless albino monkeys can be socialized to become productive members of society, along with the estate management of the experimental station, including but not limited to: Nutrition Services and Gourmet Application of Food Science Acquistion of Food and Estate Supplies Clothing Cleaning and Distribution and Repair Grounds Keeper and Gardner Transportation Services Religious and Spiritual Curriculm Development and Daily Application Financial and Fiscal Management First Aid and Minor Emergency Response Sports Trainer and Referee Educational Tutor Environmental and Disaster Clean Up Animal Science and Routine Care, including Emergency Surgery on Hamsters That is just my full-time job. The rest of the time, I do spend about 15-20 hours as a Licensed Clinical Social Worker at a Family Therapy Clinic. Oh yeah, I am also a Full Time Escort for a Domestic Partner, but that might get X-rated :twisted: view post

posted 10 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

Wow...... *forms an alliance with Gierra as the other human girl* view post

posted 10 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Off-Topic Discussionwhat do you do by alhana, Auditor

Yeah, but the way I typed it sounds more interesting...... view post

posted 10 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA *rude sign* view post

posted 10 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Philosophy DiscussionHow would you define religion? by alhana, Auditor

I personally believe that religion is the "practice and ceremonies and rules" that one uses for formal, organized, corporate worship within their society. I believe that spirituality is the beliefs that one holds personally and the personal experiences about those beliefs. Sometimes these are the same, but a person can experience spirituality without religion. view post

posted 10 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Off-Topic Discussionwhat do you do by alhana, Auditor

You also made the assumption that I am married :lol: view post

posted 10 Oct 2006, 21:10 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

We, the Peralogues, will not be silenced!!!! We demand the abilities of free posting, intellecutual diaherra, and other such forum rights!!! You can not keep us in our rooms!!!!! FREEDOM!!!!!!!!! view post

posted 11 Oct 2006, 21:10 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

We have Mahaj on our side too!!!! She was around here somewhere...she must haven been silenced by the upper eschelon of the ranks!!!! Fine..I will be silent..for now...but I go seething in righteous fury and waiting the time when I become a sub-dictate and bring change and order to the New Forum!!!!!!! *feigns submission and begins slowly poisoning the wine and food served in evil executives while wooing those kind executives with an ear for the oppression of the masses* *begins midnight message writing of hope and inspiration in the crowded bunks of the peralouges to the masses who serve the executives in order to one day rise up and overthrow the Dictates with the help of Benevolent Benefactors found among their ranks* view post

posted 12 Oct 2006, 13:10 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

I still play D&D.....<<<<<<geek. view post

posted 13 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Philosophy DiscussionWho will be President in 2008 by alhana, Auditor

Even though there are many factions, there is really only two political parties in the US. Without winning a primary election, one cannot not readily get on a ballot in any state for the office of President. Ross Perot had a good run at in back in the 90s, but he had to have representatives in every state working to get him on the national ballot. Those who run as a Democratic or Republican can do so simply by becomng their party's national representative. At the State Election level, one will find more diversity and some states have as many as 5 or 6 parties running for a State Legislative Position. I am undecided. With a year to read and study the facts, I won't even speculate who I will be voting for. view post

posted 13 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

My most humble apologies Mahaj! For some reason when I read one of your earlier posts, I came away with the impression you were female :oops: . That is problem with such methods of communication!!!!!!! *helps Brother Mahaj back to the peralouge barracks for bum healing while whispering, "We have not surrendered, we are just regrouping"* view post

Paraskavedekatriphobia Anyone?*Fear of Friday the 13th* posted 13 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Off-Topic DiscussionParaskavedekatriphobia Anyone?*Fear of Friday the 13th* by alhana, Auditor

On a day when the British Medical Journal recommends that you should stay at home, I thought I would start a discussion to see how people here feel about Friday the 13th and other superstitions. It is estimated that between $800 and $900 million dollars will be lost today because people refuse to bank or do business. In France, some people would hire themselves out as the "14th Guest" or [i:wk6piaqg]quatorzien[/i:wk6piaqg] to ward off bad luck that might befall the "13th Guest". I personally have no fear of the day and I am planning to dine out with friends this evening. Since it also falls in October this time, some people are doubly "freaked out" by this most unlucky day falling in the month of haunting. I would love to read stories about your own good or bad luck associated with Friday the 13th and other symbols. view post

posted 20 Oct 2006, 23:10 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

Laughs until her sides hurt....... view post

posted 20 Oct 2006, 23:10 in Philosophy DiscussionWho will be President in 2008 by alhana, Auditor

I just trying to read through the numberous Ballot Measures that are on my ballot. My state does print out an "information" pamplet. It is non-paritsan with the legal language of the measure and a "real folk" explanation. It also includes the various lobby groups that are pushing for the ballot measure to list their opinions. This is helpful because then I can see who will benefit from the measure in addition to what the measure is really about. As for the candidates on my ballot next month.....I don't have a clue. Our governor is up and he just might get outed if the political machine of the other major party can swing the "too much taxes" vote. On the other hand, the gas prices are dropping, the interest rates have stayed low and so people are not feeling the "gloom and doom" economic crunch. As for "colorful" candidates, I was going out with some friends this summer and we were going to hit a "alternative" strip club. When we got there, an "adult entertainment star" who was running for some election in her home state was the featured dancer. The club wanted to charge us $25 to get in 1:30 am. Needless to say, the desire to support "free speech" by paying the high cover charge outweighed my budget for the evening, so we all agreed to go back to the hotel room and drink there. I guess it illustrated some creative campaign fund raising though!!!! view post

posted 20 Oct 2006, 23:10 in Philosophy DiscussionWho will be President in 2008 by alhana, Auditor

Here here!!!!! Although I am pretty sure I don't want to see Ms. Clinton in pasties :twisted: view post

posted 20 Oct 2006, 23:10 in Philosophy DiscussionWho will be President in 2008 by alhana, Auditor

Or Al Gore in Leather Chaps.....without boxers on...... view post

posted 25 Oct 2006, 05:10 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

The mightiest of warriors can be swayed by the soft and tempting touch of the whore. Remember Samson? *floods Harrol's senses with hypnotic perfumes, promises of pleasure beyond measure as well as rest and reprieve from fighting* view post

posted 26 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Off-Topic DiscussionParaskavedekatriphobia Anyone?*Fear of Friday the 13th* by alhana, Auditor

Yeah, Celts forever cuz mooning people by lifting up your kilt is just the best intimidation tactic EVER!!!!! Hey wait..I just joined in the hijack of my own post!!!!! :evil: view post

posted 26 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

*flees Harrol's tent when she sees the "trash" being flung by her leader, Gierra and looks for a better custom* view post

posted 27 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Off-Topic DiscussionScott Bakker ruined it for me. by alhana, Auditor

I just started [i:392dgs2f]Earagon[/i:392dgs2f], the first book of the Inheirtance Series and coming soon to the a thearter near you this December! My oldest son read the book and we just bought the second book, [i:392dgs2f]Eldest[/i:392dgs2f] that he is going to read as soon as he finishes Harry Potter, [i:392dgs2f]Half-Blood Prince[/i:392dgs2f] again. Just like anything else in life, I try not to compare as this limits one's judgement to make one thing "better than" and another thing "bad". I just enjoy well written literature. On the other hand, Mr. Bakker has raised the bar for what I consider to be "well written". In my opinion, the English language has become rather compromised in the over-use of slang, Webspeak, and outright bad grammar; I think it is great when an author produces a work of epic proportions that reminds us that the written word can still be an art. view post

posted 27 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Philosophy DiscussionRight thing to do? by alhana, Auditor

This is a dilemna for certain. I agree with WP, at a glance, you don't have enough information to make a decision. I probably would have simply said, "No I am sorry, I don't have any cash on hand." But here is a question for you Will. Do you usually give money to people pan-handling? Would you have bought him a sandwich or a cup of coffee or a soda if he had asked for that instead? As a rule I do not give cash to strangers ever. I might buy them something to eat or drink, but my own moral code does not allow me to give them money. I would never, under any circumstances buy cigarettes. Though it might easy discomfort, that person will not die from not smoking, but he will die from not having a drink or food. view post

posted 27 Oct 2006, 14:10 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

*out of character* I am not sure that the ranks of the boards had anything to do with the "Geekfest" that just occurred. The topic seems to brought out the roleplayers to do what they do best :D view post

posted 15 Nov 2006, 01:11 in Philosophy DiscussionWill anything change? by alhana, Auditor

I voted no for all the reasons listed already, but mostly that all career politicians are the same. There is no "extremist" party in the US and so the parties all end up with the same bloated, self-serving existance. The idea of a "socialist" party raises a good point though. Unfortunately I think that most US voters are typically conservative and therefore tend to view "socialist" views as being too extreme for the political arena. Also, many people are ignorant and so the word "socialism" equals "communist" for many of the older voters. Though Canada to our north has many elements of a democratic socialist government, too many people in the US perceive that all the problems of Canada's government are from socialism. Additionally, Big Business has gotten Organized Labor in their political bed, so there will be no splitting up that Odd Couple. I do agree that a good political revolution is long over-due in the US and if the economy takes a dive or the energy crisis continues to spin out of control, then a new Social Group might be able to evolve to challenge the Elephant and the Donkey. On the other hand, as long as US Citizens perceive that they have the Good Life, they won't rock the Political Boat to make any changes. view post

posted 15 Nov 2006, 01:11 in Philosophy DiscussionWho will be President in 2008 by alhana, Auditor

This past Vetern's Day, I saw a special on the History Channel about John McCain's time as a POW in Viet Nam. Wow, amazing story!! I have a new level of respect for him. Does that mean that he would be a good President? I am not sure really. If he still has the same tenacity now that he did back then, then he might be able to stay the course with his own convictions and agenda. I fear though that he would just a puppet for his Party. I am still undecided, I wish there was a good grass-roots Third Party movement to back. view post

posted 16 Nov 2006, 01:11 in Philosophy DiscussionWho will be President in 2008 by alhana, Auditor

Was that a shameless attempt to further boost your forum postings WP? view post

posted 28 Nov 2006, 06:11 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

So yes..I am resurrecting this old and ridiculous post. But I must say when I posted tonight and got my promotion to did make me smile! So, there must be some kind of emotional gratification in the rankings of the board, but then I suppose from a "state of mind/point of view", I only felt a bit of satisifaction because I cared about what my rank was to begin with. Of course, if we had not started this post, I might not have even noticed when my rank on the forum changed. Would I have missed out on the temporary emotional reaction to my change in rank and the ensuring minor elation at my promotion? It is the simple things in life, my friends, that is what makes the world go around. view post

posted 28 Nov 2006, 15:11 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

*claps her hands* A paperweight!!! Shiny!!! I'll fetch the coffee only if I can do so on my knees....with a spreader arm-bar from wrist to wrist. I have no money to loan you for not to never pay back, soooooo...... Mow the lawn???!!!! Let me go see if I can find an underling to assign that task to. view post

posted 30 Nov 2006, 16:11 in Off-Topic DiscussionNow listening to... by alhana, Auditor

Christmas music, in all kinds of varieties!!! I am singing in a choir production at my church, so some of my music is just my practice CD. The rest of the time, it is the Lite Music station........I swear though, if they play Feliz Navidad one more time....... I love Christmas and I love the music, for the most part, so it puts me in the holiday spirit. view post

posted 30 Nov 2006, 16:11 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

That's right...I am a martial arts student. If my crescent kick doesn't knock you out, I will spill the hot tea I am serving on your groin and then knee you in the face...... Darn, I just gave my secret away ! :shock: view post

posted 05 Dec 2006, 06:12 in Philosophy DiscussionChristianity: Revelations by alhana, Auditor

**edit Sorry for my poor spelling....I will try to fix it when I am more alert** The trouble with most of the prophetic books of the Bible is that they were written in a form of literature that tends to be very alagoric in the orginal language. Jesus Christ himself told his followers that they would not know the time or hour of His Return. Also, to God, a day could be a 1000 years and a generation could be a million. In the 1960s, there was a book series written called the [i:2tmb5401]Late Great Planet Earth [/i:2tmb5401] in which they based all of their writings on current events at the times. With the Cold War and the Cuban Missel Crisis and Viet Nam, Christians back then really thought that Christ was coming back anytime. But here we are 40 years later. Throughout history, any attempts to "foretell" when this event might happen have been met with rather disappointing results. Some people think the Saints will all be gathered when Christ first returns to Earth...these are the ones in who believe in the Left Behind style of the end of the world. They are called Pre-Millenialists or Pre-Tribs because they believe they will go to heaven and miss all of the crappy stuff that is supposed to happen before the 1000 years of peace. Then there are those who like suffering....JK!!! and they believe that everyone, Christians and sinners, will live through the trials and tribulation times in Revelation. These folks are called Post-Tribs or Post-Millienialists...because they won't go to heave till after God brings his Kingdom to earth and the 1000 years of Peace comes. Then there is a very very small camp of people who believe that God's Kingdom has already come to earth. They believe this happened sometime about 40 years after the Nation of Israel was founded. The Christian Music Artist Sandi Patti was associated with some of the folks who thought that God's Kingdom had already come. It seems that every generation looks around and sees some new catastrophe that can't possibly be resolved or they think that mankind can not possibly get anymore vile. They look at the Bible and find "clues" that must mean that the world is going to end soon and so they stick their head in the sand and ignore the greatest commandment of love others as much as you love yourself. Instead of worrying about when any of this might happen, we should make the world a better place to live. If and when it happens, we won't be able to do anything about it Eat, Drink, and Be Merry.....wait....wrong religion!!!! view post

posted 05 Dec 2006, 07:12 in Philosophy DiscussionLeaving Iraq by 2008 by alhana, Auditor

This war is exactly about religion. In religion and it's trappings, we can name an enemy as heathen, we can cleanse a region for a cause (salvation or Democracy), we can fear the heretics, we can take resources(oil) from the damned, and we can yield the power of proganda. Religion is the easiest way to make it about Us and Them. Think of the Holy War in Prince of Nothing....there are so many similarities to the mechanics behind how that fictional war and how our Real Life War played out. At the heart of both, religion was the motivation for the common people to carry out the political gains of the ruling classes. Ultimately war is about power; but in this conflict, war is the cart and the religion is the horse of the cart on the road of Power. view post

posted 05 Dec 2006, 23:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionNames by alhana, Auditor

I found that I the names I picked for my children were based on my impression while carrying the child. Incidentally, all the names fit my sons perfectly. There were names that I had liked before I was with child, but then when I was pregnant, my sense about the names changed and the names I picked out suited each boy better. My oldest son has a Biblical name, my other two have Celtic names. All three boys have middle names that are family names, for example, Fowler and Morgan were both surnames in our family that became middle name. Using surnames as middle names is a cool way to keep the family history while having a unique name. I always like my name. I think that names have power when you explain to kids why you named them. view post

posted 05 Dec 2006, 23:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionRiddles by alhana, Auditor

I know the first riddle, they crashed their airplane into the mountain. view post

posted 05 Dec 2006, 23:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionRiddles by alhana, Auditor

I was just about to post "A shadow" but WP beat me to it! I too am going offline.....raging headahce that won't go away and time to think about fodder for the younglings. view post

posted 05 Dec 2006, 23:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionRiddles by alhana, Auditor

The letter "m". view post

posted 06 Dec 2006, 00:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionRiddles by alhana, Auditor

Words I can crack, numbers elude me..... and make my head hurt worse =P. Though, hot neck wrap+Advil+Life Mate going to get dinner=feeling better. view post

posted 06 Dec 2006, 04:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionRiddles by alhana, Auditor

I am going to guess..I think it is time? view post

posted 06 Dec 2006, 15:12 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

Wow Harrol and WP are mods now??? /flees in terror as the forum world falls into civil war.... view post

posted 06 Dec 2006, 21:12 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

For some reason, I find that my psyche is not as scared of WP, maybe I perceive Warrior-Poet to be a benevolent dictator. Harrol on the other hand seems love with his power, and therefore, more scary. JK!!!! Grats guys on your new found.....moderator position... power...responsibility...whatever it is. view post

posted 07 Dec 2006, 20:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionRiddles by alhana, Auditor

Love view post

posted 07 Dec 2006, 20:12 in The Thousandfold Thoughtwards by alhana, Auditor

I read that to mean that since Kellhus had cracked the code on the Gnostic magic, the power of his attack was stronger than the magic of the sorcerers who cast the ward. It seems that in the magical world, any caster who has more power can overwhelm a weaker enemy. Like a regular bullet can not penetrate body armor, but a stronger bullet made for piercing armor can. view post

posted 11 Dec 2006, 00:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionRiddles by alhana, Auditor

One more thing that has eyes but can't see...a potato. view post

posted 11 Dec 2006, 00:12 in Philosophy DiscussionLife and Death by alhana, Auditor

Some people don't have the will to live, they are the ones who end their live or just give up when they are fighting a serious illness. I guess the larger question is why we question our existence? I do not think that dogs or cats or birds think about their will to live, they just live. Maybe the will to live is part of being self-aware? view post

posted 11 Dec 2006, 14:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionRiddles by alhana, Auditor

Decay. view post

posted 11 Dec 2006, 15:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionThis just in; by alhana, Auditor

Ahhhhhhhh *cues the sighing audience soundtrack* If you look like a bulldog then you are cute Harrol...I like bulldogs..and pugs. Sooooo adorable. I am not cute. I am a mom. Moms are round and soft..aka fat! No I have been told by those who love me that I am attractive, of course I don't believe them. I find that most people are attractive and beautiful.....except for meth addicts..they go from cute to zombie in like 6 months. Beauty is such a fleetingly thing and so fickle. I guess I would be beautiful in like....Africa where fattness is a sign of wealth and prosperity. view post

posted 11 Dec 2006, 21:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionRiddles by alhana, Auditor

Dreams. I am good at answering these but I don't really know any. view post

posted 11 Dec 2006, 22:12 in Off-Topic DiscussionAges by alhana, Auditor

I am older than seems I fall into the 19% category of 30 to 39....35. view post

posted 04 Jan 2007, 00:01 in Literature DiscussionAnne Rice- over discriptive thinly veiled gay porn? by alhana, Auditor

The Sleeping Beauty Trilogy was openly sexual and did include some "gay" images. The Vampire Chronicles....well there is always some overt sexuality associated with vampires, even when it is bloody and gory. I read a historical fiction that she wrote, Feast of All Saints, or something like that. It was descriptive and sexual only in that it dealt with the human emotions of the characters and since most humans express sexual thoughts and emotions, then yes it talked about sex and some of those scenes had implications of gay sex in them. I think her husband influenced her writing and perhaps some of her "gayness" was from his fantasies. Of course, I have no proof, that is just my own interpretation of her work. *edit* I also remembered that I had read about a year ago Anne Rice has become a "born again christian and will no longer be writing such filth". Her husband died of cancer about 4ish years ago and her writing really took a dive after that. view post

posted 04 Jan 2007, 15:01 in Off-Topic DiscussionNow Reading... by alhana, Auditor

I am reading [i:3to1ropr]Eldest[/i:3to1ropr], the second book of the Eragon series (my oldest son and I were going to go see the movie over the holiday break, but we heard the movie was terrible and so we didn't make it a priority to go). I am also reading [i:3to1ropr]Velvet Elvis, Rethinking Christian Faith[/i:3to1ropr]. I love a book that draws parallels to outdated beliefs and a black velvet picture of Elvis. view post

posted 06 Jan 2007, 01:01 in Off-Topic DiscussionHappy New Years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! by alhana, Auditor

I don't make resolutions, but sometimes I turn over a new habit that happens to coincide with the beginning of our calendar year. Not a fan of January or cold and dreary and rather boring...all the lights and pretty stuff from Christmas goes away. view post

posted 21 Mar 2007, 14:03 in Philosophy Discussionpsychological affects of ranks in forums by alhana, Auditor

I have just got a little busy for me and February I do best to just crawl in a hole and ignore the darkness and depression. But spring is upon us and the solstice warms my soul. I see not much has changed!!!! view post


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