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Will Esmi Cause Mandati/Warrior-Prophet Drama? posted 22 August 2006 in The Thousandfold ThoughtWill Esmi Cause Mandati/Warrior-Prophet Drama? by alhana, Auditor

Maybe redemption was a poor choice of word.....perhaps resolution or "making peace with her mistake" would be a better way to describe what I meant.

She clearly betrayed Akka's love, even when she thought he was dead, she wasted no time in finding a new lover. I want there to be closure between Esmi and Akka and there never can be.

At the end of one's long life though many people "make peace" with their mistakes. Sometimes people die before they can work out what they would have or should have done differently.

Though her betrayal certainly gave Akka nothing to lose and in the end prompted him to stand up to Kellhus, I still wanted Esmi to be a "better person" and not give up on the only man who truly loved her in all of her sorided life.

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*****Sorry!! I editted this when I realized I didn't give an answer for the &quot;how&quot; part of the last post.**** I don't know how one redeems oneself for their past mistakes. If I did, I would be a much richer therapist for sure. I believe that perhaps as she gives birth to her child and raises that child, she might be able to teach that child what true love is. I know this won't happen as that child, especially if it is a son, will be under the all encompassing influence of Kellhus. I hope that she can at least apologize to Akka somehow and maybe she already did that when she told him &quot;You are not weak.&quot; Leaving Kellhus and going back to Akka is definately out of the question for many reasons.

Perhaps she could even just admit that she loves both men....but it seems that both our culture and the world of the Three Seas does not accept the fact that a person can love two people at one time. I think that all three people involved...Kellhus, Esmi and Akka...all know that Esmi loves both men and that she cannot stop herself from doing so. I am not sure that she should do so either; however the more she denies her love for Akka the more it festers both in her mind and in her relationship with Kellhus.

Now I am talking in circles for sure as loving two men really doesn't &quot;redeem&quot; a woman's infidelity. In the end, we can't take back our poor choices and maybe not regretting them is the best way to make peace with our past. But I suppose that only Bakker knows what path Esmi's life choices will take her next. view post


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